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| back on track............TOMORROW
today, i will chill. im wasted from weekend/mondays activities.
VOLKSWAGEN GOLF vs. GRAND JEEP CHEROKEE
decisions, decisions.
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| 3:45am in the f'n morning.
can't sleeeeeep!
man, so much to do! BLAH.
.. yeah, i don't know bout campmeeting this year sigh*
whatever.
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| so it's 1:32am, and i'm still not done this flippin' assignment. It's soo damn hard! the hell! but whatev, i guess i deserve it. at least i finished one of them, the other one, i'm just gonna hand it in incomplete. sigh* just gotta make it up on other thangs.
i miss my kuya.. =(
"You are the WAY, the TRUTH, and THE LIGHT" - John 14:6 (tidbit hah)
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| "Break Me"
From the day i was born young
you gave me a choice
to lead my own life
or to follow your voice
i chose to live without you
so please understand
let me try and live my life
without holding your hand
this life i've created
is full of disgrace and
all i can do now
is try and escape it
my heart's tired of aching
my image is fake and
forgive me Lord
for i have forsaken YOU.
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| hm. i don't know, i don't know what to blog about, so i'm just gonna ramble on anything that comes to my mind.
today me and my dad went out for dinner, at this vietnamese place close to my house. pretty goods. i love my dad. gosh. man, when i go to cuc, i dont know what im gonna do without my parents, im sucha mommy and daddy's boy. haha. in some ways im so sick of this place, people, and just the routines of living in this place. i'm really torn about leaving here! frick.
when i was talking to my father during dinner, he mentioned something 'bout going on a cruise to alaska during the winter break. hmmm. he said id probably get bored and told me to bring a friend. haha. who would i bring. gosh i dont know. i kinda want to spend my christmas and new years here. whatever.
man, it's so good to eat. hahaha i need to seriously cut down, disciplining yourself from food is so damn hard. especially a hearty homecooked dinner. mm mmm mm. how could you say no?! or just get a lil morsel of it, which makes it worse 'cuz then you want even more!! hahahah wtf am i talking about. i guess this is what i get for blogging 1:25am in the morning.
decisions decisions decisions. what's the right one? what's the wrong one? i guess i got it leave it all to God. It's so hard to bring every decision to Him, when we can just do it ourselves, or assume we can. thinking we know the best way, when in actuality we don't. at gymnight, lovesa and i got talking about a conversation about CUC, and my roommate situation. right now, at the moment, the plan is to room with brian, but, i got to talking to neil on facebook, and he's looking for a roommate. as much as i love brian, i think i wouldn't get much done, 'cuz we'd have too many good times together. hahah. not saying that neil doesnt bring a party to the table but, since he's older, and knows the ropes, and he gets things done, i'm kinda leaning towards that way. as much as i want to have fun, i really gotta do good now. this is for all the marbles. anyways, back to what lovesa was talking to me about, he was telling me not to room with neil cuz we're too good of friends and that its just gonna put a strain on our relationship, and we're gonna hate each other type of thing. in my opinion i don't believe that's gonna happen. but she did bring up that her and betty went through that whole ordeal, and shine and char almost did, but didn't, and they still go through ish! but then again, they're girls. i'm a guy. guys deal with things differently. if they got a problem or whatever, they tell the other guy straight up. "yo, you're being annoying" then its done. no grudges, no beef. then lovesa brought up the idea that i should bring it to God. i never really thought bout that 'cuz i don't know, it didn't seem like something i would bring up to God, i mean sucha small little thing. so lovesa said, challenge God, and see what his answer is. so she was thinking what's something that could be a sign whether or not i should room with neil or not. then she asked me what's my biggest pet peeve. and i answered hygiene. so after some ideas, she came up with, "ask neil how often does he change his bedsheets, and if he doesnt change it, lets say monthly, then we know that it's a no" so, i asked neil, and right now im just waiting for the answer. sounds kinda silly. but we'll see what happens. "give them all, give them all to Jesus" right?
i'm really excited for the choir! i dont know when that music is coming, i dont know if it takes 48 hours to be shipped or 48 hours to get here or 5-14 days to get here. i definitely hope it comes before friday, so i can start practicing the songs on saturday! PLEASE GOD! i'm really looking forward to Joshua fought the battle, down by the river side, wade in the water, this little light of mine. i dont know how the arrangements go for these songs, but i'm trusting they're sweet. after all they are acappella negro spirituals. haha.
i'm busy, too busy for anything, any distractions. i get distracted enough as it. gash. Lord, help me stay on track. sigh. so many things on my mind, so many plans, so many aspirations, so many reponsibilities, so many stresses, so many wants, so many needs. blahhhhhhh.
i hate bio, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it.
summertime!!!!! finally.
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